Performing Arts-Bulldozers just don't care.

The other day I walked past the college I went to for 5 years. The reason I was there for 5 years was because I originally tried to get straight onto the music course after school and I was so bad on guitar that the guy who I auditioned to ever so politely told me that I needed to do the course below it which was a year and it was a mixture of Drama, Music and Dance and that if I passed 2 of them, I could choose which course I would do for the next 2 years. I ended up choosing Drama instead of Music after this 1st year course as the music class was full of too many guitarists and after the first year my friend told me at the time that I was "The best actor" he had ever seen. When I asked him "What, the best actor EVER?" he replied "No, the best actor in Ashton-Under-Lyne." His point being that there aren't many actors in my town and it would be a wiser choice for me to do Drama than Music and I could always play my guitar as much as I want to at home and not have to be tied down to learning particular songs for music class with about 8 different guitarists. Anyway, I then did that 2 year course on Drama and was planning on going to university for 3 years to get my degree but a HND course opened and the plan was to arrange to do that course which was also 2 years and then as arranged with the university, I could then just do one year there as a top up on my HND to get my degree. After I and a few others finished our HND course and went to university, they then told us that they stopped doing "Top up" years and that we would have to do the whole course again. This was pointless as it would be 3 years and a lot of the people who were in university classes hadn't even studied Drama before and I had for 5 years. So after staying about 3 weeks, I decided to leave. More about my life on what happened on the next blog post but back to my point on this:-

The Performing Arts building isn't there anymore. After my last year the college decided to knock it down. I knew something like this was going to happen as ever other building in the college during my time there had been renovated and when the time came for ours to be done, they said that they didn't have enough money at the time and kept putting it off. I didn't think at the time that they were planning to knock down the building, I just thought that they didn't want to give our department any funding as they might have thought we were all a bunch of mad idiots. Why would you want to give mad idiots money?

I remember my last day in the college. It was strange. Surreal. The building and everyone in it were all just really flat. We did a monthly thing called "Studio Group," where everybody if they wanted to could get up on the stage and perform whatever it was they wanted. It was a great idea as it was an opportunity to try something different. Needless to say that I hardly ever took the opportunity. I think I was too scared of what people thought of me at the time or that I simply didn't have the balls. I think the same could be said for a lot of people there. The last performance in that studio group was some horrid temporary band that played Nirvanas' "Smells like teen spirit". It was a really bad performance but everyone decided to jump up and down towards the latter part of the song anyway. After it was all over, people left the building slowly knowing that it was going to be knocked down and then that would be the end. I don't know why, but I half expected that most people would be crying or something. Because of the emotional attachment and all that crap. A few people did but nothing major. I kind of half expected for people to strap themselves to the walls and tie themselves to the railings in protest. Hopefully the brave, selfless heroic students could save the building from those horrid evil machines that were going to destroy the place that was a second home. After about 10 minutes after the last ever performance, most people were in the pub.

I remember being one of the few people left after everyone had left. A couple of tutors were in the office and I decided to take a walk through the whole of the building. It was kind of eerie walking through a empty rooms that for some reason all seemed really different as if I was entering them for the first time, but knowing that it would be for the very last time.

I wanted to start from one end of the building and walk right through. The end room was always locked anyway. The bridge room. The recording studio. The music room. The room next to the Music room which hardly anyone went in. The Dance studio. The stairs. The computer room. The room next to the computer room which was held for written work which nobody cared about doing. Past the office. The green room. Then finally the Drama studio. I kept this last on purpose. Each room had a memory. The room with nothing important in so it was never used. The room where we had that psycho teacher in for one day where the students were afraid for their lives. The room where I recorded that horrible solo album which 28 people actually bought. The room where I learnt my first song on the guitar. The room where I secretly went to when I wanted peace and quiet. The room where I discovered that I couldn't move my body in rhythm to save my life. The room where I wouldn't do any research whatsoever but would instead go onto chat rooms and email. The room where creative writing classes ended up being held and I wrote so much but I was too scared to read anything out. The room where we got ready for performances a million times and finally, the room where I discovered that I was actually good at something but for some reason just couldn't give everything I had. At best I gave 50%. I never really understood why.

I am not sure why I chose to walk through the college that day. I think after my birthday a few days before where a few people who did performing arts at my college were there must have triggered that. I actually had my name in wet cement on the side of the building that isn't there anymore.

There were no heroics by me or anyone else to try and keep the building open. At the time, nobody seemed to care too much. I do kind of wish I had done something now.

Sachin Tendulkar 100 100s!

After a really long wait of being on 99 centuries, on the 16th of March 2012, he has finally done it. I thought a blog post would be very appropriate. I'd like to think that after my last post and having said that he was one of my favourtie people in sport, he may have read it and that would have inspired him to reach this milestone. It's highly doubtful but.

I really don't think that anyone will ever do anything like this again in cricket. There was over a year wait from his 99th to his 100th and a lot of people thought that he would never get to 100. I suppose it is pretty difficult when you have over a billion people holding their breath on every single ball you face in a career that is currently 23 years not out. All the expectation and pressure has to somehow be put aside.

Watching Tendulkar play cricket in full flow is kind of like watching music. If that makes sense. Probably in my opinion, the greatest batsman ever. Imagine if he didn't get to 100 centuries? Everyone would have remembered him for not getting there and not remember the other 99 centuries that he did make.

Something that really should be noted too is not just getting to the milestone, not even having reached the milestone but just his attitude after getting it. A simple kiss on the helmet, a look up to the sky. carry on batting. Imagine if a footballer did something similar in their sport. They would run around the pitch, rip off their shirt and start beating their chest like a gorilla. Not nice. I don't think that there would be anyone in the whole cricketing world, players and fans (unless you're from Pakistan) who wouldn't be pleased about this amazing feat. When he was on 99 and took the single it was a moment that I don't think will ever happen again.

Also what should be noted is that it is not just being the only batsman ever and probably the only batsman that will ever get to 100 centuries that makes Tendulkar a great batsman. It's not because of this. He is a great batsman anyway. The greatest batsman.

An absolute inspiration.

Blogs of note.

They say that every picture tells a thousand words. I think that's the saying anyway.

I know that most of the things that I write on my blog posts aren't really positive. That is because I am not a positive person. Being positive just leads to disappointment. If you're negative and something good happens it's more like "Well what do you know. Something good just happened. How nice."

I have been reading the "Blogs of note" lately and have found that each one I read was positive reading. They were all feel good ones which I suppose is fair enough as who wants to not feel good? But then I carried on reading and the more I  read, another thing became quite apparent and that was that every single "Blog of note" that I read all had lots and lots of pictures!

I always thought that the whole point of a blog was that it was WORDS about whatever. I did Wikipedia the word "Blog" and it does say "A typical blog combines text, images and links to other blogs". However I find that most peoples' blogs that I have seen on "Blogs of note" rely a lot more on pictures than words. Does this mean that they are crap writers and do what anybody can do and that is to get pictures off the internet or ones that they have taken on their camera/phone and post it on their blogs and then get recognition for doing that to win "Blogs of note"?? How frigging stupid. Now I'm not saying that I'm a good writer or am entertaining/interesting with my words. But at least I WRITE instead of adding picture files. But if this is the way it is going to be then let's see if it works for me-although I am not going to be positive about it.

Here is a picture of Jennifer Aniston:-

She is so good to look at right?? Feel good and all that. Does this score me points towards getting a "Blog of note"??

Here is a picture of me:-

Not that good looking. Does this take points off me for a contender for "Blog of note"?? Or will I get bonus points for adding another picture? It's also smaller of the Jennifer Aniston one. I was going to put one of me and Jennifer Aniston together but I can't find any. We mustn't have saved any of the ones with both of us in together.

Here are some of my favourite musical artists:-

Where would we be without music? That question is another blog post in itself.


Here are some of my favourite people in sports:-

What is life without sport? There isn't many things that are better than the spirit of competition-is there? Apart from alcohol, pizza and sex. Though I have forgotten what that is like. Oh and music.

Here is a picture of Homer Simpson:-

What a guy. Fictional and yellow but still. What a guy.

There you go. I have put pictures up. I am now going to wait for my phone call or email to say "Well done Mukesh. Your blog has been selected as a "Blog of note". We will send you a cookie you can eat and a certificate that you can stick up on your wall which nobody will see or ever care about". 

Valentines day

What to do if you have a partner:-

Tell them your significant other that you love them. Even more so than you already would do normally. It is valentines day so you have to over emphasise it.

Buy them gifts, cards, a romantic dinner, flowers etc.

Hope that your significant others' friends didn't receive better gifts from their significant others thus making you look cheap, not bothered and maybe not caring about your own significant other as much as your friends' significant other cares for them.

Spend a lot of money that could be used for better things. Spend too much money. Spend more than you would do when you are in a restaurant for example as it would be more to book a table on this particular day. Maybe borrow money from your single friends on this particular day. They have nobody to spoil so why would they need money?? Why are they even existing?? What is the point?? Maybe even take out a small loan to pay for the pointless expenses on this particular day. (I said particular day 3 times then).

Get stressed out for desperately trying to prove to your significant other that you do care by actually full blown stressing out. Hoping that they will think "Wow, look how much I am being stressed out for. Oh I am so loved". Show that you are desperate to not be alone.

What to do if you don't have a partner:-


Don't leave the house. Everything outside will make you want to be sick i.e all the shops will be pink, you will notice everyone holding hands/kissing/having slap and tickle more so than you would do on a normal day.

Don't be sick. Even if you do want to be sick. Do not let this lonely day get the better of you. Do not let this sick, pointless day win.

Don't be worried that you are alone. It is a good thing. Things can be better when you are alone. Even though you might be dying inside (and you can't call any of your friends as they will be too busy to have time for you as they will be celebrating valentines day with their significant others and will just say to you "don't worry, you'll find someone some day"), even though you might start thinking that there is no point to life because if you do think this then again, valentines day will win. Be strong. You owe it to yourself.

Don't get stressed out. There is no need. You don't have a significant other to make happy. You don't have to prove anything to them by showering them in gifts you really can't afford in a desperate attempt to make them want to be with you. Show the world and valentines day that you are not desperate to have someone. You are a free spirit. It is good to be a free spirit.


This day is pointless.

Time travel

This is a subject that has always fascinated me-whether it will ever be possible to actually travel through time. To go to the past to change something you regret you did. To go into the future to see how things will be. To then want to change that future by going back to the present. However if it is the future, them maybe nothing you will do will ever change it. Still with me? I hope so.

I know that there are a lot of people who are really closed minded on this subject and I don't blame them. But some scientists-some people, also believe that as things can travel through space, why not then through what makes up the other part of the continuum? Why then wouldn't it be possible to travel through time?

"Because travelling through space is a whole lot easier" said my work colleague. Good point.

Now I am myself by no stretch of the imagination a scientist. But that does not mean that I can't have theories and ideas about time travel.

I think the speed of light is supposedly 186,000 miles per second (mps). Imagine if you could build something and somehow that you could put a person in that travels at this speed. 186,000 mps is the same as travelling around the Earth at 7 times per second. Imagine going around and around and around the Earth at this speed for a long time. The time on Earth will be passing as normal, but as you are travelling so fast the time will be different. Time would be travelling slower for yourself than it would be on Earth. 10 years later (this 10 years being on Earth) and you won't have aged 10 years like everyone else as you would be in something that was travelling faster so if you eventually stopped and got out, the time on Earth will have passed as normal. After a certain time you were in this thing that was travelling so fast and then stopping and you got out, you would be around 10 years into the future.

I read an article in the newspaper a few years ago about a scientist who wanted to travel back in time to save his father who had died of an illness. He wanted to stop his father getting the illness in the first place. He had spent years of his life trying to build some kind of time machine by trying to find a wormhole in space. Then his plan was that he would go back in time to save him. Unfortunately, there are are a few problems with this:-

Firstly, the most common and popular problem when it comes to time travel is what is called The Grandfather paradox. This is basically a scenario where a person has travelled back through time and wants to shoot his Grandfather before the Grandfather has met his Grandmother. If he succeeds in doing this then he himself wouldn't have come into existence as the Grandfather was unable to have had a son or daughter who would be the gunmans' father or mother. So if the gunman who shot his own Grandfather didn't and never could have possibly existed, then who fired the shot? It simply can't happen can it? Therefore if the scientist who wants to stop his father getting ill and wants to find a way to go back in time, how would it be possible to do so when the father had to die for the son to then want to find a way back into the past to stop it?

But going back to the Grandfather getting shot scenario, some also believe that if it was possible for a person to go back in time to shoot his Grandfather, then there would always be something that would happen to stop the gunman killing his Grandfather. The universe simply wouldn't be able to allow it. Every time, the gunman would go to pull the trigger, for him to be there could (if time travel exists) be possible but for him to be able to do it, to actually pull the trigger would be impossible as he would cease to exist but as he does exist and has existed, he would be unable to physically to do this. Make sense?

Also say for example if a person somehow found a way to send something to the future like a letter. Somebody in the future then received it and then replied to it.-if in the future, technology would probably be faster, the person from the future could send back a reply to the letter a lot faster than the time it took in being sent and it could mean that the person from the past receives the reply to the letter before the original letter was sent in the first place, thus making no sense at all.

Another problem is that if a time machine was built, you wouldn't be able to go back to the past purely because in the past a time machine had never arrived and as the past has already happened (with no time machine having arrived when the past was the present), this would be impossible. So I guess it makes sense that if a time machine was built, you wouldn't be able to go to the past and that is why no travellers from the future have arrived as no time machine has been built yet. But that means you can't travel back in time? I am very wary of the following as it is one thing that that I haven't read anywhere from anyone in all the research I've done and that is this:-

Imagine if a thousand years ago, there was a person somewhere in a remote part of the world who had somehow built a time machine but never used it and kept it a secret. He never went in it and it wasn't proven to even work. Say for example the person was too afraid to use it. So that person told his son about the time machine. He was also too afraid to use it. So that person told his son and so on and so on until a thousand years later where that particular son decided to break the trend and actually try the time machine. It worked and if the theory of not being able to go back in time to when before the time machine was created is a valid theory, then as it is a thousand years later theoretically, that person could travel back in time to a thousand years. But then comes the paradox again in the fact that would he ever be able to meet his grandfather as they didn't have anyone from the future arrive when the past was the present (sorry if I am confusing you). But the point is-although it is highly unlikely-is that if a time machine or a way to time travel does exist and is only ever known by a single person until he passes it on before his death as mentioned and that person lives in a very remote part of the world where he doesn't interact with hardly anyone, then paradoxes could potentially even be avoided especially if they couldn't go back to the remote part of the world where they lived but the time machine would also have to land in the past where nobody was there-otherwise that would have already happened in the past.

In 2005 in Perth, there was an experiment where they were trying to get people from the future who might've created a time machine to come back and to demonstrate it to the people that were there at the present time. It was supposedly a heavily publicised meeting time and place for future time travellers to meet. Needless to say, nobody from the future turned up.

Stephen Hawking said that travelling into the past would be impossible. But travelling into the future, using the travelling around the Earth at the speed of light example could be possible. You would just need a tremendously huge amount of fuel and a lot of energy. However some scientists do believe that you can travel back in time and the future then will be a through a different time line.

For example, if someone went back in time and killed his Grandfather, a new time line would then be created. It is in this new time line that the Grandfather would be killed and as the gunman is still alive and well, it would be in the old time line where the Grandfather has survived thus going on to create his Grandson. Therefore maybe creating a parallel universe. But then what happens to the gunman in the old time line after he has gone back in time? Does he just completely disappear? What happens to that time line? Also, in the new time line, does the gunman have a Grandfather or Father?

All scientists believe that for every action, there is a reaction. Some scientists also believe this:- There are alternative universes. For every single decision you make, there are endless possibilities and an alternative history for each one. It is very far fetched. That could mean that somewhere in a parallel universe, I am The King of everything or a Superhero and all the world worships me and all the ladies want to stroke my face. Even I have trouble that this particular point could be true but it would solve the paradox problem.

Some believe that time is a fixed line where there could be a way of propelling yourself along that line, forwards or backwards. Even if things have happened and things are about to happen-the line of time is there.

Some scientists believe that there is a single fixed history that is impossible to change as it is done and dusted history. It has already happened so how could you change it? But other scientists believe that history is open and things can be changed but major events cannot be changed. But in the film The Butterfly Effect, it's the significant changes in the main characters' own history that causes big changes in the future but their own future. So as some believe that the tiniest or biggest of personal changes in the past can cause massive effects on those certain people. People often say that it is only historic world events that are unchangeable. As they were meant to happen no matter what. So if someone for example went back in time to stop the assassination of President John Fitzgerald Kennedy, they wouldn't be able to stop it happening as it was meant to happen. I remember watching an episode of Quantum Leap when I was a child and it was about a scientist who wanted to develop a way for a person to travel back in time from when that person was born. It ended up going wrong and he kept "leaping" into other peoples' lives one by one in times of crisis. He would stay in them until he would solve whatever problem that person was having by being that person. One time he (Dr Sam Beckett was the character name) leapt into Lee Harvey Oswald before the assassination of JFK. Sam was then convinced that as he was now Lee Harvey Oswald, he could stop the event from happening-but he couldn't. As Lee Harvey Oswald, he ended up shooting JFK anyway.

In an episode of The Twilight Zone, a woman goes back in time and ends up as a housemaid in the Hitler family. The woman plans to kill Adolf Hitler when he's a baby. She is unable to at first but eventually, she kidnaps the baby and then jumps into the river with him, sacrificing herself in the process. Another housemaid  witnesses this and in a panic, ends up buying a baby from a gypsy and replacing him without the family knowing. This of course would be the new Adolf Hitler and would go on to kill millions and millions of people. So ironically, the woman tried to kill Adolf Hitler to save people but ended up being the cause of their deaths.

In an AMAZING episode of The X Files titled "Monday", a woman called Pam ends up going through the same day over and over and over again. The woman's boyfriend would go to rob a bank with a bomb tied to himself and it would always end up unsuccessful and in people's deaths-including Mulder and Scully who are the main characters. The woman tried over and over again to stop it happening and although the day would have different things occuring, the story and the outcome would always be the same. During the episode Mulder who is a believer anyway, would keep getting a sense of Deja vu which would give Pam hope that he and Scully wouldn't end up going into the bank or that they could stop the deaths from happening. But this was never the case and Pam believes that she is trapped in hell. In the end, one scenario that hasn't happened before happens and Pam throws herself  in front of Mulder and accidentally gets shot by her boyfriend and her last words are "This never happened before". She was meant to die for time to continue.

There have actually been many different books, films and TV shows involving time travel all exploring various ways and what impact it can have if there was a way to do it. The people that do believe time travel could be possible have a ton of theories on the subject.

So is time travel possible? Will it ever be possible? Has it even happened and we don't know it??? Only time will tell!

Getting ready for the new year

• Going through the most pointless bit of anticlimax ever. Check
• Kidding myself that "This year is going to be the start of amazing things for me." Check
• Watching people getting stupidly drunk and out of their senses. Then vomiting. A lot. Check.
• Being pecked ever so lightly on the cheeks by gorgeous ladies who I don't know, having my hands shaken by guys I don't know and then watching those same girls and guys get it on with each other passionately. Check.
• Seeing smokers quit at midnight and start again at 2am. Seeing alcoholics tremble at not being able to have a drink otherwise they will break their new years' resolution and then watching them get defeated under the intense pressure of putting themselves in an environment where everyone else is drinking. Seeing gamblers telling people that they have lost their cards/wallet and have no money to get drinks because their new years resolution was to stop gambling and so they had a massive fix before they went out and lost all their money. Check. Check. And fucking check.
• Achieving nothing at all. Check.
• Feeling even more lost and empty than ever. Check.

The new year. The same old shit year.

Bullying

I have touched on the subject a lot but never really wrote too much about it in-depth. Seeing as it is "Anti-bullying week" (14th November) and seeing as it feels like it's the time for me to write about it, here we go:-

First of all, I'd just like to point out that I do not want to promote violence and fighting or anything like that.

It is not an easy life when you're being bullied. The feeling of loneliness that may stem from it can almost be too much to cope with.

But if there is anyone out there who is being bullied then don't stand for it. I know it is so much easier said than done but you have to stand up for yourself. If it's verbal, you can always say something back-not something that will anger them as such, but just something that shows what they think doesn't matter to you. If it is physical, there is no point just standing there getting beat up. You might as well try and fight back. Even if there are about 50 of them. If you can get a good smack in just one of their faces, it will make you feel less like shit afterwards. If you go down fighting, they might not bother with you again. If you don't go down fighting, then not only will you be feeling like shit afterwards, but you'll be wishing you had done something. And then they will always come back as they know you're an easy target. Do not make yourself an easy target. Even the stupidest of idiots will realise that if they go to beat someone up and they fight back, that they might themselves have a chance of getting hurt.

I know that there is a hell of a lot of bullying going on and a hell of a lot of people who take it and suffer in silence. They end up suffering in silence for so long that them being afraid and scared becomes part of their life. It becomes who they are. It becomes normal for them to go outside their door and worry that they might bump into one of their bullies. Nobody should live their lives in fear like this. There have been people, children included who have committed suicide due to the fact that they are being bullied. If you have the stomach for it then please read:-

http://www.addicted.com/forums/posts/9156/1/Bullying-makes-too-many-kids-commit-suicide

Apparently 8% of all teenagers try to commit suicide because they are being bullied.

I, myself was bullied for about 4 years of my school life by an army of Pakistanis. At first, I would pretty much be shitting it going to school everyday for about 3 of those years. There were too many of them and they knew I was an easy target because I didn't say or do anything back. I was too sacred. The main entrance of the school would be horded, as would the back entrance of the school . You just had to hope you could somehow could avoid those hordes and sneak past or that they wouldn't be bored that day and would have something to do other then to attack me. Most of the time, this wasn't the case.

Teachers were useless when it came to solving the matter. There were altogether about 100 of these bullies (this is no exaggeration) and there was one of me. It came to a point where I had gotton into a fight with a different one of them once a week at the very least. Once it was 3 times in a week. Each one of those was reported to the Head of Science for some reason. The 3rd time, he said "Mukesh. You again." It was like he was implying that it was somehow my fault. At the time, it didn't seem to register with him that maybe I was the victim. Even actual victims are well known to blame themselves for being bullied. I guess it would be easy to blame just one person rather than 100 animals. They weren't humans. Humans have emotions, but then so do animals. These bastards were something else. I remember after the 3rd fight that week, when I was once again in the office, I was crying. Not because I was aching anywhere but I think that I was just mentally exhausted and was so tired. It killed me that I was in tears while one of the bastards was sat next to me. The twat at the time got a long detention. That is one hour having to stay behind after school. One lousy fucking hour. I remember seeing this particular person repeatedly physically sexually harassing a girl. I am ashamed of myself to this day that I didn't do anything. Again. I was too scared.

I really wouldn't have minded as much if it was 1 on 1. That's fair. If you lose, you can say, well, that was a fair fight. I lost. The better man won. But when it as at least 6 or more on 1, then it does get more like- "Fucking cowards are too scared to fight on their own." This is what they are. Cowards. There were now and again times where I would see one of them on their own. They wouldn't even come near me, nevermind say or do anything. Apart from one time where one of them made out he was going to go after me and I took my bag and my coat off and threw them on the floor and then the coward crossed the road!

It got to the point where when I was going to lesson, I would have to watch out for any of them. People who don't know me that may read this might be like "But why? Why would they do this?" I was Indian, they were Pakistani. No other reason. They were inbred (not me making fun of them, they actually were) and I am not.
A couple of my friends had a theory that they were jealous of me. It still wasn't enough of a reason.

In my 4th year of school, I started getting a bit wiser in the fact that, when I would leave home to go to school, I would always go late. I would skip registration and would go straight to first lesson. The teachers knew that I would refuse to go through the hordes of inbreded cowards and risk danger to myself so my form tutor would always mark me in. I would always be marked down as late though. My attendance was amazing. My punctuality wasn't. I didn't mind about that though as long as I was safe. I was always the first one to class.

I know that it doesn't just happen in schools. After I left school and went to college, there were a few there and I got jumped once on my way home. The police did their usual thing of writing it down in a notebook and then doing sod all about it. I remember the next day I thought to myself that no way was I going to go through college life like I did my school life. So I took a hammer on my way to college for a while. Stupid thing to do and when my mum saw me, she said I could go to jail. I just replied that they were not going to hurt me ever again. Neither of my parents ever understood the horror I was actually going through. Strangely enough I didn't see any of them for a few weeks. There was a real sick part of me that wanted to bump into them whilst I had my hammer. Would I even have it in me to use it??

Then whilst at college I worked part-time in a horrid cake factory that was also full of them. I ended up getting stabbed in the hand with a pallet knife. 2 of them got sacked. Then I ended up leaving that job.

Anyway, bullying can happen anywhere and there are many forms of it. School, college, work and even home. ANYWHERE. Do not stand for it! There are plenty of people to talk to:-

http://www.google.co.uk/#hl=en&cp=25&gs_id=2m&xhr=t&q=who+to+talk+to+about+bullying&pf=p&sclient=psy-ab&source=hp&pbx=1&oq=who+to+talk+to+

Also the NSPCC and there are also recovery centres including this in The UK:-

http://www.redballoonlearner.co.uk/about.htm

which are there to help someone that had been bullied in the past and not letting that trauma affect you for the rest of your life.

There are many forms of bullying. Physical, racial, verbal, emotional, sexual. If you feel like you are being subjected to any of this, then put a stop to it. You have to be mentally strong otherwise the bullies will win. Bullies are people who don't give a damn about their victims and how they might be scarring them.

This is a great interview with a victim (who also ended up doing Performing Arts like I did) that I found:-

http://www.chicagonow.com/portrait-of-an-adoption/2011/03/interview-with-a-bullying-victim/

There was a thing I saw in a magazine where victims of bullies years later tracked their bullies down to interview them and ask the bullies why and how they felt about it now etc. I purposely didn't read these interviews as I was afraid that at the end of each one, the bullies would apologise and the victims would accept it. It might seem like the wrong thing to do to not accept apologies if they were given but there would be no way that I would accept any apologies if it was me. But that's just me. Like I said earlier, these particular bastards had no emotions anyway.

Nobody has to go through anything like this anywhere or anytime. There are always going to be cruel cowards everywhere in the world. Nothing is ever going to change that. Even though it didn't work with me, you can talk with people. There are a ton of sites on the internet you can look at. Phone someone. Talk to someone in person. DON'T keep it to yourself. DON'T blame yourself. DON'T  listen to what the bullies tell you to do. DON'T be scared. Even though it is difficult to do this. You can use your own fear against them. Remember that you are the better person. DON'T let the bullies win.