Work colleague:- She is pretty. Don't you think so?
Me:- She is alright. Not really that pretty. Not much about her.
Work colleague:- Oh.... right. I assume that you just go for Indian girls then?
Me:- No. The work colleague then replied:-Oh....but....what would your parents say if you went for a white girl?? Would they be against it?? Are they religious?? My reply was:-What would that have to do with what kind of girls I like?? The work colleague then proceeded to say:- Well, would you get into trouble if you took a white girl home with you?? Some religions are mad, you can't do anything. So are you different then?? What kind of stuff do you do?? Or are you more British like us??
Me:- I am nothing like you.
I then walked out of the room. This, as well as the other "conversation from work" on this blog is a word for word conversation that took place.
Wednesday 8 December 2010
Tuesday 7 December 2010
Goodbye Mahendra
I thought that seeing as I was unable to say anything at the funeral, then it would be easier for me to write something now, but that seems difficult too.
There was so much that my uncle went through in life. Just after he regained full health and was so full of life again, he passed away. It just doesn't make any sense.
I think that everybody who knew my uncle can all learn something from him and that is that no matter how bad things can get in your life, no matter what you have to go through, you can still always look on the positive side of things and keep smiling and laughing and being jolly and making other people happy. This is a very rare quality to have but there is no reason why everyone including myself can't be like this.
Rest In Peace Mahendra Kaka .Hopefully I am wrong and that there is a heaven as that is where you deserve to be.
There was so much that my uncle went through in life. Just after he regained full health and was so full of life again, he passed away. It just doesn't make any sense.
I think that everybody who knew my uncle can all learn something from him and that is that no matter how bad things can get in your life, no matter what you have to go through, you can still always look on the positive side of things and keep smiling and laughing and being jolly and making other people happy. This is a very rare quality to have but there is no reason why everyone including myself can't be like this.
Rest In Peace Mahendra Kaka .Hopefully I am wrong and that there is a heaven as that is where you deserve to be.
Monday 15 November 2010
Karma or just a load of crap??
A few years ago I told one of my then work colleagues that for something good to happen to me-a lot of bad things always seemed to have to happen first. I then read this same statement in a Spider-man graphic novel a week later and at the time, I couldn't believe how strange that was.
I used to think that anytime you did something bad, it would come back to get you in some way. I would always constantly think about bad things that I had done in my life and always wondered how and what I could do to make karma not want to punish me. Even though I firmly believe that you make your own decisions and your own path in life, I also believe that things are always going to try and break you and I also used to believe that past misdeeds would come back to haunt you. But now I am not so sure.
There are so many cruel idiots in the world. Nothing bad I see even surprises me anymore. As I have mentioned before, I would always question people as to why they were behaving in such a way-they would never have an answer purely because they would never need an answer because Karma hasn't done anything to them. Their lives aren't bad, so why would they need to question themselves?? One of many examples is how many times do you hear about a woman staying with her unfaithful boyfriend?? Or a husband that beats her?? You hear about it all the time. The woman still stays with them. "But he really loves me, I know he does" or "But he will change for me, he told me so" etc etc etc..... But the point is that she will stay with him because she is punishing herself. The guy will never then need to think that he needs to change. Why should he as this is the kind of behaviour is what the girl must like so therefore he will never have to wonder if Karma will come to get him. As much as I love Manchester United, it was strange that after the Wayne Rooney cheating on his wife with 2 prostitutes story came out, his wife ended up staying with him and he ended up getting a pay rise from the club from £100,000 a week to up to £250,000! Is this Karma??
I saw a complete idiot who was one of the Pakistanis who bullied me in school. He also repeatedly used to sexually harass a girl in one of my classes. At the time I was too much of a coward. Way too much. (Just want to mention that he is probably one of the ugliest people in the history of all people). I was convinced that sooner or later his life will become so bad it would be unbearable and that he would want to commit suicide. That is if he wasn't killed in some horrible way first. When I saw him, he was getting out of a brand new Range Rover with his wife/girlfriend and son. He was laughing (Ugliest laugh I have ever heard) and didn't notice me. So much for fucking karma. (First time I have sworn on my blog) I mean there could be many problems in his life and stuff but from where I was standing, that didn't seem the case. Is this Karma??
I then started to think that maybe it was all just random chaos and anything could happen to anyone at anytime. But that thought didn't last too long in my head.
I think now, it has come to the point where I am actually starting to believe that you have to be evil to have a good life. You have to do bad things and then good things will happen. I would never in my life encourage people to do bad things nor would I ever purposely do bad things. But it seems that if you want to be happy then this is the way to go.
There could be a heaven. There could be a hell. Where the people mentioned above might just burn for eternity. But I'm beginning to think that people feel the need to believe that heaven and hell must exist to make sense of this all. People need to believe. What is the point in living life and watching people who don't deserve happiness be happy and more better off?? If I knew for sure that there was a hell then it probably wouldn't bother me as much. But let's face reality-there isn't a heaven or hell most probably and as harsh as it sounds, our bodies probably just rot and then we end up getting forgotten about.
There just doesn't seem to be much justice in the world.
As for our souls?? Things like The X Factor, Pop music and Facebook have probably long killed them by the time we die. Well, long killed most of them.
I used to think that anytime you did something bad, it would come back to get you in some way. I would always constantly think about bad things that I had done in my life and always wondered how and what I could do to make karma not want to punish me. Even though I firmly believe that you make your own decisions and your own path in life, I also believe that things are always going to try and break you and I also used to believe that past misdeeds would come back to haunt you. But now I am not so sure.
There are so many cruel idiots in the world. Nothing bad I see even surprises me anymore. As I have mentioned before, I would always question people as to why they were behaving in such a way-they would never have an answer purely because they would never need an answer because Karma hasn't done anything to them. Their lives aren't bad, so why would they need to question themselves?? One of many examples is how many times do you hear about a woman staying with her unfaithful boyfriend?? Or a husband that beats her?? You hear about it all the time. The woman still stays with them. "But he really loves me, I know he does" or "But he will change for me, he told me so" etc etc etc..... But the point is that she will stay with him because she is punishing herself. The guy will never then need to think that he needs to change. Why should he as this is the kind of behaviour is what the girl must like so therefore he will never have to wonder if Karma will come to get him. As much as I love Manchester United, it was strange that after the Wayne Rooney cheating on his wife with 2 prostitutes story came out, his wife ended up staying with him and he ended up getting a pay rise from the club from £100,000 a week to up to £250,000! Is this Karma??
I saw a complete idiot who was one of the Pakistanis who bullied me in school. He also repeatedly used to sexually harass a girl in one of my classes. At the time I was too much of a coward. Way too much. (Just want to mention that he is probably one of the ugliest people in the history of all people). I was convinced that sooner or later his life will become so bad it would be unbearable and that he would want to commit suicide. That is if he wasn't killed in some horrible way first. When I saw him, he was getting out of a brand new Range Rover with his wife/girlfriend and son. He was laughing (Ugliest laugh I have ever heard) and didn't notice me. So much for fucking karma. (First time I have sworn on my blog) I mean there could be many problems in his life and stuff but from where I was standing, that didn't seem the case. Is this Karma??
I then started to think that maybe it was all just random chaos and anything could happen to anyone at anytime. But that thought didn't last too long in my head.
I think now, it has come to the point where I am actually starting to believe that you have to be evil to have a good life. You have to do bad things and then good things will happen. I would never in my life encourage people to do bad things nor would I ever purposely do bad things. But it seems that if you want to be happy then this is the way to go.
There could be a heaven. There could be a hell. Where the people mentioned above might just burn for eternity. But I'm beginning to think that people feel the need to believe that heaven and hell must exist to make sense of this all. People need to believe. What is the point in living life and watching people who don't deserve happiness be happy and more better off?? If I knew for sure that there was a hell then it probably wouldn't bother me as much. But let's face reality-there isn't a heaven or hell most probably and as harsh as it sounds, our bodies probably just rot and then we end up getting forgotten about.
There just doesn't seem to be much justice in the world.
As for our souls?? Things like The X Factor, Pop music and Facebook have probably long killed them by the time we die. Well, long killed most of them.
Wednesday 10 November 2010
Diwali
Diwali-Also known as "The festival of light" is simply beautiful. During Diwali, candles are lit to signify the triumph of good over evil and also to signify the inner light of purity within oneself. That there can be good in all man. That in total darkness there can still be light. That there can still be hope. It represents to commit good deeds and bring us closer to divinity.
It's probably the only time in the year where my family all actually get along with each other. The only time in the year where I actually think that things are OK. No matter how bad things might be-things are still OK-if that even makes sense.
There are stories-lots of stories, amazing stories that should be read. There are a ton of books and a ton of websites which will explain the best part of the year more better than I ever could. Please check them out.
It's probably the only time in the year where my family all actually get along with each other. The only time in the year where I actually think that things are OK. No matter how bad things might be-things are still OK-if that even makes sense.
There are stories-lots of stories, amazing stories that should be read. There are a ton of books and a ton of websites which will explain the best part of the year more better than I ever could. Please check them out.
Wednesday 27 October 2010
Everyone wants to laugh
Whilst I was in college studying Drama, anytime we were given something to improvise, most of the time everyone including myself, would do something funny. Make people laugh. This was the easy thing to do and a safe option. You could easily do something silly, say something funny, anything really and people would laugh. If anyone was given a task to make someone cry, it would be a lot more difficult to do. This isn't because the person isn't able to make other people cry-it's because people who are watching and listening are too afraid to be sad. How many times do you hear people say "Oh I don't like that song, it's too depressing" or, "I can't watch that film, it makes me cry." These are people that are afraid to connect with their emotions. Kurt Vonnegut once even said:-
"Laughter and tears are both responses to both frustration and exhaustion. I myself prefer to laugh, since there is less cleaning up to do afterwards."
Now there is nothing wrong with this at all. Who wouldn't want to be constantly happy all the time?? However in the current way of the world, this is actually impossible to do unless you were on some kind of happy pills. But surely it is better to be however your feeling, regardless of what others might say?? Regardless to what you might have to "clean up".
If I went into work and spoke to one of my colleagues or if I spoke to one of the many acquaintances I have and said something along the lines of "I'm feeling really down today, I feel so sad, I don't think I can take much more of life", people would believe it or not-laugh. Their response would be something like "Oh Muk, ha ha, he is always depressed ha ha". They would be too afraid to want to actually even want to talk to me seriously and cast aside what I would truly be feeling and pass it off as a joke. People that actually really know me, which is unfortunately not many anymore, would probably want to sit down and talk to me. The majority of the people who read this blog seem to focus on the few funny bits rather than the serious ones.
I am not saying that everyone should be sad. I'm not saying everyone should go around and be downbeat and have negative feelings all the time. I'm trying to say that everyone should just feel how they are feeling and not act out an emotion. If you're happy, be happy. If you're sad, be sad. If you're angry, then be angry. But don't kid yourself to be feeling something you're not as this can just send your soul into oblivion.
Pablo Neruda once said "Laughter is the language of the soul". That could be true, but only if you really feel like laughing. Otherwise it is better to cry then to pretend.
"Laughter and tears are both responses to both frustration and exhaustion. I myself prefer to laugh, since there is less cleaning up to do afterwards."
Now there is nothing wrong with this at all. Who wouldn't want to be constantly happy all the time?? However in the current way of the world, this is actually impossible to do unless you were on some kind of happy pills. But surely it is better to be however your feeling, regardless of what others might say?? Regardless to what you might have to "clean up".
If I went into work and spoke to one of my colleagues or if I spoke to one of the many acquaintances I have and said something along the lines of "I'm feeling really down today, I feel so sad, I don't think I can take much more of life", people would believe it or not-laugh. Their response would be something like "Oh Muk, ha ha, he is always depressed ha ha". They would be too afraid to want to actually even want to talk to me seriously and cast aside what I would truly be feeling and pass it off as a joke. People that actually really know me, which is unfortunately not many anymore, would probably want to sit down and talk to me. The majority of the people who read this blog seem to focus on the few funny bits rather than the serious ones.
I am not saying that everyone should be sad. I'm not saying everyone should go around and be downbeat and have negative feelings all the time. I'm trying to say that everyone should just feel how they are feeling and not act out an emotion. If you're happy, be happy. If you're sad, be sad. If you're angry, then be angry. But don't kid yourself to be feeling something you're not as this can just send your soul into oblivion.
Pablo Neruda once said "Laughter is the language of the soul". That could be true, but only if you really feel like laughing. Otherwise it is better to cry then to pretend.
Wednesday 13 October 2010
Ignorance is bliss or Knowledge is power??
People seem to be obsessed with a programme called The X Factor-a glorified karaoke competition. A programme that helps stop real artists' music getting across. A programme that completely destroys the point of making music. People watch this and judge.
There was a programme called Big Brother which has thankfully now ended. In this there were a load of attention seeking, desperate for fame people in a house. That was it. That was the whole thing of what it was about. People in a house. People would watch this and judge.
There are numerous programmes that are shown throughout the daytime where it seems that people put their whole dignity on the line. Programmes such as The Jerry Springer or the Jeremy Kyle show. In these shows, people attempt to "solve" their problems by revealing to the world their deep personal issues (eg the other day it was on in work and some guy had slept with his brothers' wife and gotten her pregnant-the wife didn't know whos' baby it was). The host of the show would then degrade and belittle whoever he thought would please the audience. People watch this and judge-as well as claiming that they watch these kind of programmes to "feel better about themselves".
Just over 8 years ago before The Commonwealth Games event took place in Manchester, a very horrific, sickening thing happened in the town in which I live in. A family got murdered. It took me 3 full weeks to actually find out the details as when I looked in the national newspaper the next day, there was a 12 page special on Big Brother but no news on this murder. In the news and the local paper, there still was no information about this. I wondered maybe the reason why it didn't make the news was because I live in a small town but why not the local paper?? Some people later explained to me that they couldn't print something so horrific whilst The Commonwealth Games were about to start in the same city. Then 3 weeks later, there was a short bit in the local newspaper about what had happened. And as awful and as sickening as this murder was, the real disturbing fact about it I will tell later.
When I was in college at the time, I was studying Theatre Studies and one of our projects was to do a performance on anything we wanted. Any subject whatsoever that interested us. I wanted to explore why people were so interested in programmes like Big Brother. What made people watch these kind of shows?? Why were they so interested in things like watching people behave like idiots in a house?? If they wanted to see a karaoke competition, why not just go to a real one in a pub and actually see them sing?? Why are people so interested in watching other people humiliate themselves?? Rather than wanting to actually help them, they would prefer to just laugh at them. Why was something so horrific that happened so close to me just ignored?? At the time, I didn't understand. In some ways, I don't think I ever will.
My performance was so surreal. I set up a huge projector and had a recording of Entertainment Tonight and clips of other "celebrity" programmes showing on it. Next to it, I had a very small TV set up with what I considered to be actual news and events that are important to all of us. Then I had a huge table set up on the side with a load of newspaper cuttings of celebrity things (this included the 12 page Big Brother special along with many other related things). Then strewn across the floor, I had newspaper cuttings that were just small paragraphs (one of them being the story about the murder which was at most just 60 words) about things that were again, what I considered real important news. Plus I wrote a few very short scripts that I got my classmates to act out in a melodramatic "celebrity style" way. I barricaded all the seating and the idea was that when the audience walk in, they would see all this, would be unable to sit down and therefore actually be in the middle of all this which was supposed to represent that society is kind of forcing us all to focus on things that really aren't important and people become oblivious to things that are maybe more important and there was nothing anyone could do about it. However when some of the audience walked in, some of them tried to take the barricades on the seating down! They then sat on the floor not knowing what to do for about 10 minutes taking it all in. I thought I had failed miserably in what I was trying to put across and had to leave the room with my head down. But apparently, while they were all talking about my performance afterwards, they eventually understood what I was trying to do and the feedback I got was brilliant. Them not realising what was going on made the whole point of it work as that what I was trying to get across.
This performance was shortly done after I found out all the details about the murder and who was the culprit-it was a member of their own family. He was jailed for life.
There was a programme called Big Brother which has thankfully now ended. In this there were a load of attention seeking, desperate for fame people in a house. That was it. That was the whole thing of what it was about. People in a house. People would watch this and judge.
There are numerous programmes that are shown throughout the daytime where it seems that people put their whole dignity on the line. Programmes such as The Jerry Springer or the Jeremy Kyle show. In these shows, people attempt to "solve" their problems by revealing to the world their deep personal issues (eg the other day it was on in work and some guy had slept with his brothers' wife and gotten her pregnant-the wife didn't know whos' baby it was). The host of the show would then degrade and belittle whoever he thought would please the audience. People watch this and judge-as well as claiming that they watch these kind of programmes to "feel better about themselves".
Just over 8 years ago before The Commonwealth Games event took place in Manchester, a very horrific, sickening thing happened in the town in which I live in. A family got murdered. It took me 3 full weeks to actually find out the details as when I looked in the national newspaper the next day, there was a 12 page special on Big Brother but no news on this murder. In the news and the local paper, there still was no information about this. I wondered maybe the reason why it didn't make the news was because I live in a small town but why not the local paper?? Some people later explained to me that they couldn't print something so horrific whilst The Commonwealth Games were about to start in the same city. Then 3 weeks later, there was a short bit in the local newspaper about what had happened. And as awful and as sickening as this murder was, the real disturbing fact about it I will tell later.
When I was in college at the time, I was studying Theatre Studies and one of our projects was to do a performance on anything we wanted. Any subject whatsoever that interested us. I wanted to explore why people were so interested in programmes like Big Brother. What made people watch these kind of shows?? Why were they so interested in things like watching people behave like idiots in a house?? If they wanted to see a karaoke competition, why not just go to a real one in a pub and actually see them sing?? Why are people so interested in watching other people humiliate themselves?? Rather than wanting to actually help them, they would prefer to just laugh at them. Why was something so horrific that happened so close to me just ignored?? At the time, I didn't understand. In some ways, I don't think I ever will.
My performance was so surreal. I set up a huge projector and had a recording of Entertainment Tonight and clips of other "celebrity" programmes showing on it. Next to it, I had a very small TV set up with what I considered to be actual news and events that are important to all of us. Then I had a huge table set up on the side with a load of newspaper cuttings of celebrity things (this included the 12 page Big Brother special along with many other related things). Then strewn across the floor, I had newspaper cuttings that were just small paragraphs (one of them being the story about the murder which was at most just 60 words) about things that were again, what I considered real important news. Plus I wrote a few very short scripts that I got my classmates to act out in a melodramatic "celebrity style" way. I barricaded all the seating and the idea was that when the audience walk in, they would see all this, would be unable to sit down and therefore actually be in the middle of all this which was supposed to represent that society is kind of forcing us all to focus on things that really aren't important and people become oblivious to things that are maybe more important and there was nothing anyone could do about it. However when some of the audience walked in, some of them tried to take the barricades on the seating down! They then sat on the floor not knowing what to do for about 10 minutes taking it all in. I thought I had failed miserably in what I was trying to put across and had to leave the room with my head down. But apparently, while they were all talking about my performance afterwards, they eventually understood what I was trying to do and the feedback I got was brilliant. Them not realising what was going on made the whole point of it work as that what I was trying to get across.
This performance was shortly done after I found out all the details about the murder and who was the culprit-it was a member of their own family. He was jailed for life.
Wednesday 6 October 2010
Conversation from work
A work colleague said to me
"I think the bus driver gave me the wrong change today. He gave me too much back. I asked for a £4:50p any bus daysaver and gave him a £10 note and he gave me £5:50p back. Yay!"
My reply was
"You gave him a £10 note for a £4:50p any bus daysaver and he gave you £5:50p back and you think that he gave you too much change??"
The work colleagues' reply to that was
"Erm, well yeah. he gave me too much back.......didn't he??"
(I then left the room)
"I think the bus driver gave me the wrong change today. He gave me too much back. I asked for a £4:50p any bus daysaver and gave him a £10 note and he gave me £5:50p back. Yay!"
My reply was
"You gave him a £10 note for a £4:50p any bus daysaver and he gave you £5:50p back and you think that he gave you too much change??"
The work colleagues' reply to that was
"Erm, well yeah. he gave me too much back.......didn't he??"
(I then left the room)
Thursday 30 September 2010
Losing the feeling
I believe if someone is a writer, actor, musician, artist, then they are trying to say something and trying to even connect with the world through what they are doing. Now it's not a case of having emotion to create emotion, but I think you need an emotion to be in to the creative side of yourself-otherwise you are just another mindless drone of society.
When I was in college and would be doing something-whatever it was, as I studied performing arts, I would always be acting, singing, and have a guitar or a piano close by. Nothing would actually really be bothering me as I was constantly doing things that I enjoyed doing. Any "problems" I had would mostly be secondary that they didn't really matter in the whole context of life. I knew that when I finally did leave college "the world would be my oyster" as people so often say. For some reason even though I knew competition is tough, I always thought that I would just go straight into the acting or music world and easily earn a living from that. However, I seem to be getting further and further away from actually doing this. But why is this?? Because I am losing emotion-my creative side. Why?? I don't know.
A few days ago, some idiots drove past me in a car, threw a cigarette at me and shouted "Paki". A few years
ago, I would've been angry and peed off to say the least. I probably would've yelled something back, explain to them that I am Indian, tell myself that I shouldn't be annoyed because they are ignorant idiots that know nothing whilst at the same time, maybe even try to explain to them that India and Pakistan are 2 completely different countries (a work colleague said to me the other day "they are near enough the same kind of people"-imbecile) but nevertheless, every single person is an individual anyway. I would've wanted to say this to them, or hit them, or something! Instead I just found myself just shaking my head and not doing or saying anything as they sped off in what looked like a cheap skoda.
I used to think that it was always possible for one person to be able to change the world, to change the way people think for the better like Mahatma Gandhi, Martin Luther King and Nelson Mandela all did. These were amazing people and I feel that we need someone in these modern times that people can look up to and find inspiring. Unfortunately, the only people that everyone looks up to now seem to be drug addicted models/rock stars, hooker pop stars or even serial killers.
It sounds silly, it sounds strange, but when I was a child, I always wanted to be someone who could inspire people to do great things, to change the world for the better. No matter what anyone did or said to me, I would keep thinking this.
But lately, I am finding it very difficult not just to be able to connect with the world, but actually wanting to connect with the world. People seem to be more concerned about their facebook status or what that piece of lard called Katy Perry is wearing today.There seems to be so much sickness and ignorance in the world now that I am finding it mentally exhausting and therefore do end up walking around like just another mindless drone of society.
Wondering if I will ever find any inspiration to do anything and to wanting to do anything at all.
When I was in college and would be doing something-whatever it was, as I studied performing arts, I would always be acting, singing, and have a guitar or a piano close by. Nothing would actually really be bothering me as I was constantly doing things that I enjoyed doing. Any "problems" I had would mostly be secondary that they didn't really matter in the whole context of life. I knew that when I finally did leave college "the world would be my oyster" as people so often say. For some reason even though I knew competition is tough, I always thought that I would just go straight into the acting or music world and easily earn a living from that. However, I seem to be getting further and further away from actually doing this. But why is this?? Because I am losing emotion-my creative side. Why?? I don't know.
A few days ago, some idiots drove past me in a car, threw a cigarette at me and shouted "Paki". A few years
ago, I would've been angry and peed off to say the least. I probably would've yelled something back, explain to them that I am Indian, tell myself that I shouldn't be annoyed because they are ignorant idiots that know nothing whilst at the same time, maybe even try to explain to them that India and Pakistan are 2 completely different countries (a work colleague said to me the other day "they are near enough the same kind of people"-imbecile) but nevertheless, every single person is an individual anyway. I would've wanted to say this to them, or hit them, or something! Instead I just found myself just shaking my head and not doing or saying anything as they sped off in what looked like a cheap skoda.
I used to think that it was always possible for one person to be able to change the world, to change the way people think for the better like Mahatma Gandhi, Martin Luther King and Nelson Mandela all did. These were amazing people and I feel that we need someone in these modern times that people can look up to and find inspiring. Unfortunately, the only people that everyone looks up to now seem to be drug addicted models/rock stars, hooker pop stars or even serial killers.
It sounds silly, it sounds strange, but when I was a child, I always wanted to be someone who could inspire people to do great things, to change the world for the better. No matter what anyone did or said to me, I would keep thinking this.
But lately, I am finding it very difficult not just to be able to connect with the world, but actually wanting to connect with the world. People seem to be more concerned about their facebook status or what that piece of lard called Katy Perry is wearing today.There seems to be so much sickness and ignorance in the world now that I am finding it mentally exhausting and therefore do end up walking around like just another mindless drone of society.
Wondering if I will ever find any inspiration to do anything and to wanting to do anything at all.
Thursday 23 September 2010
Guitar Zero
I saw an advert on TV where a few people are playing in a band. Then all of a sudden, some idiot comes in and starts smashing their instruments and tells them that there is "no need to struggle" and introduces them to a new "guitar hero" game. This advert nearly made me vomit.
Not that I have a problem with computer gaming, but it seems so unreal and strange to me that people would rather spend their money on something that is guitar hero, rock band or even DJ hero rather then learn the real thing. I've always said that the best thing a person can do is learn a musical instrument as it creates real emotion. It's been proven that it helps with intelligence levels, especially in children whilst they are growing up. It teaches discipline and patience and helps with confidence. Even really shy people can express themselves through music. Learning an instrument can also actually help calm the mind. But unfortunately, it seems lesser people are actually doing this and that they would rather just be pretenders. Pretenders who have no creativity, no soul, but yet are happy to just be empty robots by opting to play guitar hero rather than actually playing a real guitar. Instead of actually wanting to be a rock star, they want to pretend to be a rock star! I was talking to someone the other week who I knew had bought a guitar and really wanted to learn it, but when I asked her how it was going, she replied "I've still got it, but I would rather play guitar hero-it's easier" Cue the vomit.
When I was in college, I was surrounded by musicians most of the time-whether I liked them or not, I would still have respect for them for doing what they were doing. Now it seems that most of the people that are around me don't have much about them in a creative sense. It really does seem that I am out of touch with society. Out of touch with everything.
Not that I have a problem with computer gaming, but it seems so unreal and strange to me that people would rather spend their money on something that is guitar hero, rock band or even DJ hero rather then learn the real thing. I've always said that the best thing a person can do is learn a musical instrument as it creates real emotion. It's been proven that it helps with intelligence levels, especially in children whilst they are growing up. It teaches discipline and patience and helps with confidence. Even really shy people can express themselves through music. Learning an instrument can also actually help calm the mind. But unfortunately, it seems lesser people are actually doing this and that they would rather just be pretenders. Pretenders who have no creativity, no soul, but yet are happy to just be empty robots by opting to play guitar hero rather than actually playing a real guitar. Instead of actually wanting to be a rock star, they want to pretend to be a rock star! I was talking to someone the other week who I knew had bought a guitar and really wanted to learn it, but when I asked her how it was going, she replied "I've still got it, but I would rather play guitar hero-it's easier" Cue the vomit.
When I was in college, I was surrounded by musicians most of the time-whether I liked them or not, I would still have respect for them for doing what they were doing. Now it seems that most of the people that are around me don't have much about them in a creative sense. It really does seem that I am out of touch with society. Out of touch with everything.
Sunday 19 September 2010
King Berbatov??
What a brilliant performance by hat-trick hero Dimitar Berbatov against Liverpool! Liverpool have only 5 points in their first 5 games....just saying. I think it was £31 million Manchester United paid for Berbatov as Sir Alex Ferguson said Berbatov is the closest thing he has seen to Eric Cantona and he is finally starting to show why. Not that I condone money being spent like that on any football player. In fact I absolutely hate the money side of football but it is funny when you get people that don't like football commenting on how footballers shouldn't get paid that much (the average being a crazy £70,000 a week!) for just "kicking a ball about", but yet these seem to be the same people who own boxsets and dvds of movies such as...Transformers, watch and listen to TV and radio and not complaining about how much people on there make. Apparantly, the main actor in the horror that was Transformers (can't remember his name-not important) got paid $6million! The couple from the Twilight movies got over $16million each for their films and Cameron Diaz got $10 million just for using her voice in Shrek forever after! Simon Cowell made an estimated $75 million to his name in 2009 and his "job" is to basically be an idiot. Beyonce Knowles made $87 million for shaking her bum. On a "lesser" extent, Phillip Schofield gets about £750,000 for hosting a show that nobody cares about and Fearne Cotton gets £20,000 a year for her radio show. The thing that annoys me most is that I am probably far more entertaining then all of the names mentioned (remember, you can't see Cameron Diaz as she is only using her voice) and I get paid £5.82p an hour for my job. So it's not just in football where the wages are crazy. It's pretty much everywhere around us.
Thursday 16 September 2010
Gorgeous idiot??
I was reading the paper today and came across a picture of Gemma Arteton wearing next to nothing for her premiere of some film she is in (can't even remember the name). ANYWAY, she was moaning about how "Hollywood only wants her for her body". Hm, maybe it's because she's not actually a good actress?? I'm not even sure, I don't even know what she has been in. But surely if you wanted to be known as a serious actress and not your body, you would maybe wear clothes and not show off your body all the time?? Now being a 28 year old heterosexual male, it is very nice seeing her body but I think she could've made a huge statement at the premiere by wearing a jog suit or something like that and THEN have a moan about people only wanting her for her body. Hypocrite?? Yes. Related actresses to Gemma Arterton include:-Kelly Brook, Megan Fox (I watched Transformers for the first time as it was on TV the other day-bad acting, bad script, bad everything), Pamela Anderson-the list goes on but ladies:-YOU ARE BAD ACTRESSES. Nobody wants you for your acting skills! I know it, you know it, everyone knows it-stop complaining!
Wednesday 15 September 2010
Co-exist?? Probably not in my lifetime if ever at all.
I finished watching the tennis US open last night and it was a brilliant final between Rafael Nadal and Novak Djokovic. Nadal won 3 sets to 1 with the last set being 6 games to 2. But this scoreline doesn't reflect on how close and how brilliant this match actually was. The day before in the womens' final, the lovely Kim Clijsters defeated Vera Zvonareva (who has defeated Clijsters twice this year) very easily 6-1 and 6-2 with Zvonareva crying a lot after the match was over. I was glad Clijsters won as her story is amazing. Just a couple of years ago retiring from tennis, having a baby, returning to tennis and after playing just a handful of games, drew a wild card in the 2009 US open, winning it and winning it again this year! Amazing. Unlike most of the other female tennis players who pose in magazines in their skimpy outfits trying to be sexy, Clijsters actually focuses on her tennis and this makes her more appealing then the rest of the others put together.
However, the most intriguing thing about the whole tournament was in the mens' doubles. In the final, Bob Bryan and Mike Bryan in straight sets defeating Rohan Bopanna and Aisam-Hul-Haq Qureshi. An Indian and a Pakistani.
Admittedly, I didn't watch any of the doubles matches ( I never do) apart from this final and after the match had finished the announcer said it was nice and good to see an Indian and Pakistani teaming up, with the crowd going wild with applause. I myself was in shock throughout the whole match that this had happened in the first place (athough apparently this pairing have been together for a few years). Qureshi making a long speech about how the whole world, especially in the USA people think that Pakistanis are a bad bunch but claiming it was just the minority, with the majority of Pakistanis and Muslims being a peaceful lot. (The match took place on the anniversary of 9/11).
For anyone that doesn't know, there is a LOT of bad blood between India and Pakistan. The most notable occurrence being a terrorist shooting and bombing attack from Pakistan in Mumbai in November 2008. At least 173 people were killed and at least 308 were wounded. There has been a rivalry between these countries since the very beginning. On a more personal note, I myself was bullied by Pakistanis for nearly my whole school life, was stabbed in the hand with a pallet knife during my first job after I left school and it sure hasn't been an easy road. However, I feel that if an Indian and a Pakistani can team up in tennis like Bopanna and Qureshi have and carry on their "Stop war and start tennis" campaign and promoting peace through sports, then anything is possible. But this is going to take a lot of time. I am talking decades-but this is a start at least. For a full interview with Bopanna and Qureshi before the final, go to http://www.usopen.org/en_US/news/interviews/2010-09-08/201009081283985860863.html
However, the most intriguing thing about the whole tournament was in the mens' doubles. In the final, Bob Bryan and Mike Bryan in straight sets defeating Rohan Bopanna and Aisam-Hul-Haq Qureshi. An Indian and a Pakistani.
Admittedly, I didn't watch any of the doubles matches ( I never do) apart from this final and after the match had finished the announcer said it was nice and good to see an Indian and Pakistani teaming up, with the crowd going wild with applause. I myself was in shock throughout the whole match that this had happened in the first place (athough apparently this pairing have been together for a few years). Qureshi making a long speech about how the whole world, especially in the USA people think that Pakistanis are a bad bunch but claiming it was just the minority, with the majority of Pakistanis and Muslims being a peaceful lot. (The match took place on the anniversary of 9/11).
For anyone that doesn't know, there is a LOT of bad blood between India and Pakistan. The most notable occurrence being a terrorist shooting and bombing attack from Pakistan in Mumbai in November 2008. At least 173 people were killed and at least 308 were wounded. There has been a rivalry between these countries since the very beginning. On a more personal note, I myself was bullied by Pakistanis for nearly my whole school life, was stabbed in the hand with a pallet knife during my first job after I left school and it sure hasn't been an easy road. However, I feel that if an Indian and a Pakistani can team up in tennis like Bopanna and Qureshi have and carry on their "Stop war and start tennis" campaign and promoting peace through sports, then anything is possible. But this is going to take a lot of time. I am talking decades-but this is a start at least. For a full interview with Bopanna and Qureshi before the final, go to http://www.usopen.org/en_US/news/interviews/2010-09-08/201009081283985860863.html
Monday 13 September 2010
What do I do??
Normally when people have a day off from work, they might take this opportunity to maybe DO SOMETHING. For example, maybe do some shopping-although I couldn't do that as I have no money. Maybe meet up with friends and go for a drink-although I couldn't do that as I have no money nor do I have any friends. So what did I actually do today?? I wandered around in the rain. I thought about my life and ended up feeling a wide range of emotions. All negative emotions. Emotions such as-sad, bored, frustration etc.....
I got thinking about work. Or to be more specific, the people I work with. The people I HAVE to work with. The strange things that they sometimes say. Now far be it from me to name names-I am far too professional for that. But the following are just some things that have been said to me within the last 2 weeks by some of my work colleagues:-
I got thinking about work. Or to be more specific, the people I work with. The people I HAVE to work with. The strange things that they sometimes say. Now far be it from me to name names-I am far too professional for that. But the following are just some things that have been said to me within the last 2 weeks by some of my work colleagues:-
- "Mukesh, why don't you open your own curry house by the block of flats over there" (I don't even think that the overweight, sweaty person that said this was even saying it as a joke. They assumed it was what I actually wanted to do with my life)
- "Do you always eat Indian food or do you sometimes eat normal food??" (Indian food is alien food apparantly)
- "Yo Mukesh, do you speak Asian??" (This would be like asking someone from Europe if they spoke European)
- "Do you celebrate Eid??" (In case you hadn't noticed after working with me for a year. I am INDIAN!!!)
- "Why aren't you fasting??"
Sunday 12 September 2010
QUESTION-How exciting is this?? ANSWER-Very. I'm so very excited
Hello, I am not sure if I am doing this right. I'm not sure that I do ANYTHING right anymore. I don't know who will read this and I don't know if there is even a point if people do read this. Why no point?? Because what is the point in ANYTHING?? Think about it please for one second. WHY DO ANYTHING?? Note:-I am always consistently doing 2 question marks after I ask a question. It is not a consistent typo. Why do I do this?? (Note again with the 2 question marks), again-I don't know. Today is the 12th of September. What is so special about this date?? NOTHING. Why have I chosen to do this?? I DON'T KNOW. From from today until the day I die (commit suicide maybe?? I DON'T KNOW, I'm 28, I wouldn't even be in the cool 27 club anymore), I am going to write about STUFF. About life. I am going to question everything. For those of you that choose to read and maybe even choose to follow, please remember this-I am a 28 year old man that doesn't really like anything-thanks.
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