Getting ready for the new year

• Going through the most pointless bit of anticlimax ever. Check
• Kidding myself that "This year is going to be the start of amazing things for me." Check
• Watching people getting stupidly drunk and out of their senses. Then vomiting. A lot. Check.
• Being pecked ever so lightly on the cheeks by gorgeous ladies who I don't know, having my hands shaken by guys I don't know and then watching those same girls and guys get it on with each other passionately. Check.
• Seeing smokers quit at midnight and start again at 2am. Seeing alcoholics tremble at not being able to have a drink otherwise they will break their new years' resolution and then watching them get defeated under the intense pressure of putting themselves in an environment where everyone else is drinking. Seeing gamblers telling people that they have lost their cards/wallet and have no money to get drinks because their new years resolution was to stop gambling and so they had a massive fix before they went out and lost all their money. Check. Check. And fucking check.
• Achieving nothing at all. Check.
• Feeling even more lost and empty than ever. Check.

The new year. The same old shit year.

Bullying

I have touched on the subject a lot but never really wrote too much about it in-depth. Seeing as it is "Anti-bullying week" (14th November) and seeing as it feels like it's the time for me to write about it, here we go:-

First of all, I'd just like to point out that I do not want to promote violence and fighting or anything like that.

It is not an easy life when you're being bullied. The feeling of loneliness that may stem from it can almost be too much to cope with.

But if there is anyone out there who is being bullied then don't stand for it. I know it is so much easier said than done but you have to stand up for yourself. If it's verbal, you can always say something back-not something that will anger them as such, but just something that shows what they think doesn't matter to you. If it is physical, there is no point just standing there getting beat up. You might as well try and fight back. Even if there are about 50 of them. If you can get a good smack in just one of their faces, it will make you feel less like shit afterwards. If you go down fighting, they might not bother with you again. If you don't go down fighting, then not only will you be feeling like shit afterwards, but you'll be wishing you had done something. And then they will always come back as they know you're an easy target. Do not make yourself an easy target. Even the stupidest of idiots will realise that if they go to beat someone up and they fight back, that they might themselves have a chance of getting hurt.

I know that there is a hell of a lot of bullying going on and a hell of a lot of people who take it and suffer in silence. They end up suffering in silence for so long that them being afraid and scared becomes part of their life. It becomes who they are. It becomes normal for them to go outside their door and worry that they might bump into one of their bullies. Nobody should live their lives in fear like this. There have been people, children included who have committed suicide due to the fact that they are being bullied. If you have the stomach for it then please read:-

http://www.addicted.com/forums/posts/9156/1/Bullying-makes-too-many-kids-commit-suicide

Apparently 8% of all teenagers try to commit suicide because they are being bullied.

I, myself was bullied for about 4 years of my school life by an army of Pakistanis. At first, I would pretty much be shitting it going to school everyday for about 3 of those years. There were too many of them and they knew I was an easy target because I didn't say or do anything back. I was too sacred. The main entrance of the school would be horded, as would the back entrance of the school . You just had to hope you could somehow could avoid those hordes and sneak past or that they wouldn't be bored that day and would have something to do other then to attack me. Most of the time, this wasn't the case.

Teachers were useless when it came to solving the matter. There were altogether about 100 of these bullies (this is no exaggeration) and there was one of me. It came to a point where I had gotton into a fight with a different one of them once a week at the very least. Once it was 3 times in a week. Each one of those was reported to the Head of Science for some reason. The 3rd time, he said "Mukesh. You again." It was like he was implying that it was somehow my fault. At the time, it didn't seem to register with him that maybe I was the victim. Even actual victims are well known to blame themselves for being bullied. I guess it would be easy to blame just one person rather than 100 animals. They weren't humans. Humans have emotions, but then so do animals. These bastards were something else. I remember after the 3rd fight that week, when I was once again in the office, I was crying. Not because I was aching anywhere but I think that I was just mentally exhausted and was so tired. It killed me that I was in tears while one of the bastards was sat next to me. The twat at the time got a long detention. That is one hour having to stay behind after school. One lousy fucking hour. I remember seeing this particular person repeatedly physically sexually harassing a girl. I am ashamed of myself to this day that I didn't do anything. Again. I was too scared.

I really wouldn't have minded as much if it was 1 on 1. That's fair. If you lose, you can say, well, that was a fair fight. I lost. The better man won. But when it as at least 6 or more on 1, then it does get more like- "Fucking cowards are too scared to fight on their own." This is what they are. Cowards. There were now and again times where I would see one of them on their own. They wouldn't even come near me, nevermind say or do anything. Apart from one time where one of them made out he was going to go after me and I took my bag and my coat off and threw them on the floor and then the coward crossed the road!

It got to the point where when I was going to lesson, I would have to watch out for any of them. People who don't know me that may read this might be like "But why? Why would they do this?" I was Indian, they were Pakistani. No other reason. They were inbred (not me making fun of them, they actually were) and I am not.
A couple of my friends had a theory that they were jealous of me. It still wasn't enough of a reason.

In my 4th year of school, I started getting a bit wiser in the fact that, when I would leave home to go to school, I would always go late. I would skip registration and would go straight to first lesson. The teachers knew that I would refuse to go through the hordes of inbreded cowards and risk danger to myself so my form tutor would always mark me in. I would always be marked down as late though. My attendance was amazing. My punctuality wasn't. I didn't mind about that though as long as I was safe. I was always the first one to class.

I know that it doesn't just happen in schools. After I left school and went to college, there were a few there and I got jumped once on my way home. The police did their usual thing of writing it down in a notebook and then doing sod all about it. I remember the next day I thought to myself that no way was I going to go through college life like I did my school life. So I took a hammer on my way to college for a while. Stupid thing to do and when my mum saw me, she said I could go to jail. I just replied that they were not going to hurt me ever again. Neither of my parents ever understood the horror I was actually going through. Strangely enough I didn't see any of them for a few weeks. There was a real sick part of me that wanted to bump into them whilst I had my hammer. Would I even have it in me to use it??

Then whilst at college I worked part-time in a horrid cake factory that was also full of them. I ended up getting stabbed in the hand with a pallet knife. 2 of them got sacked. Then I ended up leaving that job.

Anyway, bullying can happen anywhere and there are many forms of it. School, college, work and even home. ANYWHERE. Do not stand for it! There are plenty of people to talk to:-

http://www.google.co.uk/#hl=en&cp=25&gs_id=2m&xhr=t&q=who+to+talk+to+about+bullying&pf=p&sclient=psy-ab&source=hp&pbx=1&oq=who+to+talk+to+

Also the NSPCC and there are also recovery centres including this in The UK:-

http://www.redballoonlearner.co.uk/about.htm

which are there to help someone that had been bullied in the past and not letting that trauma affect you for the rest of your life.

There are many forms of bullying. Physical, racial, verbal, emotional, sexual. If you feel like you are being subjected to any of this, then put a stop to it. You have to be mentally strong otherwise the bullies will win. Bullies are people who don't give a damn about their victims and how they might be scarring them.

This is a great interview with a victim (who also ended up doing Performing Arts like I did) that I found:-

http://www.chicagonow.com/portrait-of-an-adoption/2011/03/interview-with-a-bullying-victim/

There was a thing I saw in a magazine where victims of bullies years later tracked their bullies down to interview them and ask the bullies why and how they felt about it now etc. I purposely didn't read these interviews as I was afraid that at the end of each one, the bullies would apologise and the victims would accept it. It might seem like the wrong thing to do to not accept apologies if they were given but there would be no way that I would accept any apologies if it was me. But that's just me. Like I said earlier, these particular bastards had no emotions anyway.

Nobody has to go through anything like this anywhere or anytime. There are always going to be cruel cowards everywhere in the world. Nothing is ever going to change that. Even though it didn't work with me, you can talk with people. There are a ton of sites on the internet you can look at. Phone someone. Talk to someone in person. DON'T keep it to yourself. DON'T blame yourself. DON'T  listen to what the bullies tell you to do. DON'T be scared. Even though it is difficult to do this. You can use your own fear against them. Remember that you are the better person. DON'T let the bullies win.

Inspiration #2

I don't know if there is a God or not. If there is then:-

Dear God, please can you stop the wars and killings of people for no reason other than greed and the difference of opinion through religion.

Dear God, even though you have given mankind everything on Earth, we cannot seem to sort our own shit out. The rich remain too rich whilst there are people that have no food whatsoever. Please help them.

Dear God, please give us back Kurt Cobain, Michael Jackson and Elliott Smith. we need them.

In return, we will give you Justin Beiber, Katy Perry and Rhianna. If you would like to send them to the other place then that is fine by me. I have no complaints with that.

Diwali #2

It doesn't feel like it much as it's before the pointlessness of Halloween this year, but Happy Diwali.

It is usually celebrated on the darkest night of the year (this year the 26th of October), but I am not sure how it works as here, the clocks go back in a few days. But it's also got something to do with the moon too.

It's the start of the new year the next day. It represents victory of good over evil, it supposedly brings good luck to people and it pretty much is a damn good couple of days.

In my own words, I am going to try and write a couple of Diwali stories. I'm not a religious person at all but the stories are pretty fascinating. These are shortened versions.

The first one is the story of Lord Ram defeating the evil demon Ravan.

Ram was the son of King Dasaratha and Queen Kaushalya. The King also had 2 other wives. Queen Kaikeyi whose son was Bharata and Queen Sumitra who had twins -Lakshman and Shatrughn. As Ram was the eldest, he was the rightful heir to the throne of Kosala. When Ram married Sita (He won her hand by being the only one who could string the great bow of Shiva), the daughter of King Janak who was ruler of a kingdom called Videha, King Dasaratha decided as he was getting very old to let Ram take over the throne. However, Bharatas' mother Queen Kaikeyi was manipulated by an evil maid of hers named Manthara and told her that if Ram became the King, he would kill her son Bharat. Some time before, Queen Kaikeyi had saved King Dasarathas' life and in return, he had promised he would grant her 2 wishes, no matter what they were. So Kaikeyi requested that Ram be exiled into the forest for 14 years and that Bharata be made the king. King Dasaratha had no choice and couldn't go back on his word so exiled Ram to the forest. Sita and his younger brother Lakshman went with him. Bharata didn't want to be king as Ram was the rightful heir and tried to persuade Ram to come back from the forest but he had to honour his fathers' word. King Dasaratha passed away with grief.

Bharata didn't sit on the throne once. Instead, he put a pair of slippers which belonged to Ram on the throne until he returned-if he ever did.

Ram, Sita and Lakshman lived in the forest peacefully for years until one day when a female demon named Surpanakha saw Ram and fell in love with him. She wanted to marry him but he said he was already married so then she asked Lakshman, but he was already married too (to Sita's cousin named Urmila). Surpanakha threatened to eat Sita so Lakshman cut off her nose and ears. Surpanakha fled to her brother Ravan who was a demon with 10 heads and 20 arms. Ravan wanted revenge and went off to get Sita with the help of a demon called Marich. Marich went to the forest and turned himself into a golden deer which Sita saw and then she asked Ram if he could catch it for her so she could keep it as a pet. Ram went off in search of the deer and didn't return for ages so Lakshman went to look for him. He made a magic circle around Sita which would protect her from everything as long as she remained inside it.

A while later, Sita saw a Holy man begging for food. The man needed help and Sita stepped out of the circle and as soon as she did, the man showed his true form as Ravan and grabbed Sita and kidnapped her and took her back to his Kingdom-Lanka.

Upon return, the 2 brothers find Sita gone. The animals in the forest tell them she has been kidnapped and show them which way to go. On their journey to Lanka, they come across a Monkey God called Hanuman. Hanuman was disguised as a Brahmin and Ram said to Lakshman when meeting Hanuman that even an enemy with a drawn sword would have been moved. After introducing each other, they become friends. Hanuman who has the power to fly and to shape shift flies off in search of Sita. He eventually finds her in Lanka guarded by a lot of demons. He turns into a cat and tells her that Ram is coming to get her. He offers to fly her back to Ram, but Sita refuses saying that his honour is at stake. Hanuman then goes about starting to destroy Lanka and then lets himself be captured by Indrajit who has the power to turn invisible and is Ravans' son as Hanuman decides that it would be an opportunity to meet Ravan. He warns Ravan that Ram is coming to get him but would be willing to forgive him if he returns Sita safe and unhurt. Ravan wants Hanuman executed. Ravans' demon brother Vibhishana stops this and says it is against the rules to destroy the messenger. Ravan then decides to set Hanumans' tail on fire, at first when Ravans' demons try to set it on fire, Hanuman makes his tail go longer and longer and then allows it to be put on fire and then he escapes and starts to burn down Lanka with his tail. He then extinguishes his tail in the sea and goes back to Ram and tells him of Sitas' whereabouts. Ram and Lakshman march there with an army of bears and monkeys.

Vibhishana who had now been exiled from Lanka was advised by his mother named Kaikesi to join Ram which he did and this helped Ram and Lakshman kill hundreds of Ravans' demons including Kumbhakaran who was a demon who could swallow entire armies. He was killed by Ram and Indrajit was killed by Lakshman. Then Ravan decided he had to go into battle himself and destroyed most of the monkeys and bears and nearly killed Lakshman. The monkeys told Ram that Lakshman could still be saved with certain herbs from the Himalayas which they were nowhere near and Ram thought he was going to lose his brother. But Hanuman saved the day by flying over to the Himalayas. But when he got there, he had no idea which herbs were the right ones that were needed as there were so many different ones. So Hanuman picked up the whole mountain and flew back to Lanka with it! The monkeys all searched for the correct herbs and made a potion for Lakshman to inhale and it slowly revived him.

Ram and Ravan went into battle and it lasted 10 days. Every time Ram cut one of Ravans' heads or arms off, another would grow back in it's place. Eventually, Ram fired a special arrow given to him by the Gods and fired it through Ravans' heart. It was over.

By this time, the 14 years of exile was over and Ram, Sita and Lakshman returned to Kosala where they were celebrated by the entire kingdom as Hanuman got there first and told Bharata the good news and Ram was crowned as king and Sita, the queen.

People celebrate and worship Ram and Sita as Gods and celebrate it to this day. This is one of the stories of good triumphing over evil. Light over Darkness hence the candles, the divyas and the lamps used on Diwali.

If I am still around, there will be another story next year!

Oh and I was part of a play in my first primary school about this story. I played the part of one of Ravans' demons and was on stage for about 5 seconds. As much as I like you Mrs Inglesfield, I was not happy about this. Shame I had to move school before I reached your year. We could've had some interesting conversations I think.

A dark day for Manchester United

Manchester United 1 - Manchester City 6.

I still am sticking by to every word on my last post. Still a long way of the season to go.

But this was the worst day for the club since I was born.

United V City

The game is on 23rd October 2011. Tomorrow!

In the Red corner we have a team that is the most successful team in English football and one of the most successful teams in all of football. Winning countless trophies and in the past 25 years since their current manager Alex Ferguson took over, they have won I think 37 major trophies (I've lost count). They have created trophy winning squads after trophy winning squads with entertaining football and have so much history as a club.

From Sir Matt Busby and his "Busby Babes", to the the Munich air disaster to Sir Matt Busby creating a new team after the Munich air disaster which claimed 23 lives, the team was rebuilt with the likes of Denis law, Bobby Charlton and George Best eventually becoming the first English team to win the European cup.

Although I was probably a Manchester United fan since entering this accursed world, one of my first memories was when I was about 6 years old and it was New years' day and I was watching them play Liverpool who were dominating football in the 80s. This was some of the game. (The wonders of the Internet.) You will have to copy and paste. I remember screaming at the TV shouting for Manchester United after they went 1-0 down. The commentry from 3:45-4:07 is just classic.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=upbQNvJy2MI

A few years later, til now, they have been winning trophies left right and centre with amazing players that have graced the game. Bryan Robson, Mark Hughes, Roy Keane, Ryan Giggs and my favourite all time player ever, Eric Cantona. These are the kind of players from my generation who were/are just amazing, loyal performers of the game.

In Blue corner, we have a team of pretenders. They have won one trophy (The FA cup-which is Utds' 3rd priority trophy) in 30 years and are now considering themselves as "the best football team in the world" just because they are currently the richest team in the world.

What else about them?? Nothing.

My dad being a City supporter himself sent me to bed one time after I was watching a European game and cheered when this goal went it. Sorry about the music, I didn't upload the video but the goalkeepers' moustache makes up for it. I had to watch the 2nd goal on the news the next day.

Copy and paste if clicking on it doesn't work.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gkuzTOsVNZk

I am writing this as people are now saying that the Manchester derby is the biggest in the world. I will get about 4 hours sleep if I am to watch it as I sure will. And just for good measure:-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2p5CLhXYFbY

Ironically Wayne Rooney was having a really bad game. It was almost as if he was saving all the talent he has just for that one moment. A few weeks before there were rumours that he was going to join city which is why as well as the goal, the celebration was also amazing. Although you can't see it, that part of the pitch was where the city fans were. He ran up to them and turned his back on them. Brilliant.

Let's see what happens tomorrow.

Naked celebrities-STUPID Naked celebrities

Recently, there has been a group of people apparently from America who are hacking into the mobile phones of celebrities such as Jessica Alba and Christina Aguilera. Why are they doing this? Not to listen to their phone conversations or read their text messages. No. They are hacking into their mobile cellular device thingies to see them naked. These celebrities have been taking naked pictures of themselves on their phones to either send to whoever, or to look at themselves. They are now distressed as this group of hackers are going to blackmail these celebrities for lots of money to get their photos back.

A few things spring to mind.

Firstly, who are these hackers? How are they doing this? If they can hack into celebrities' phones, could they hack into government files also and finally confirm to us all that the government are actually hiding aliens?? Could they hack into the presidents' phone just to tell him how lucky he is that he gets paid $400,000 and gets  to work from home?? With free travel, board and security??

Also, these celebrities are pretty much walking around naked anyway, why all of a sudden be scared of some hackers? Unless they are sticking strange things up themselves like chair legs, cactus or toblerone bars, then there really shouldn't be a cause for concern. Who cares?

Last but not least. If these celebrities are that stupid enough to take photos of themselves naked, doing stuff and then get distressed about the whole situation, then I have to make a suggestion to them-if that's OK. I highly doubt that Miss Alba, Miss Aguilera (we are not on first name terms yet) or any of these other stupid bimbos will ever read this, but if they do, in future, to stop any of this happening and to anyone who hasn't had their phone hacked yet:-

DON'T BE STUPID ENOUGH TO TAKE NAKED PICTURES OF YOURSELVES YOU SILLY BIMBOS.

Fair enough-everyone deserves privacy and should be allowed to do what they want-but if you become famous, then stuff like this is restricted as you're ALWAYS going to have people monitoring you.